Dr. Helen Magnus (
notsocommon) wrote2013-03-17 09:27 pm
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Helen had taken a day to process everything she'd seen before going to talk to Will about it. She felt like she'd been neglecting Gregory somewhat in the process, so she took a day off from clinic work and her classes and just about everything to take care of her son. He seemed grateful enough for the attention, so much as a small baby could, and since Will wasn't around, she took her time giving him a bath and singing to him.
She had a terrible singing voice, true, but her father had always sung her little lullabies growing up and Helen wanted to pass that along to Gregory. She always wanted him to associate his Mummy with someone safe and kind. She always wanted him to know that being in her arms meant that nothing could ever harm him or frighten him.
"I'm sorry I've not been around, little one. Mummy's just had so many things to think about this week. It's nothing to do with you, I promise."
Maybe she could get him soothed and down for a nap before Will came in and then they could talk.
She had a terrible singing voice, true, but her father had always sung her little lullabies growing up and Helen wanted to pass that along to Gregory. She always wanted him to associate his Mummy with someone safe and kind. She always wanted him to know that being in her arms meant that nothing could ever harm him or frighten him.
"I'm sorry I've not been around, little one. Mummy's just had so many things to think about this week. It's nothing to do with you, I promise."
Maybe she could get him soothed and down for a nap before Will came in and then they could talk.
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So when a patient cancels an afternoon appointment, he decides to go home early and maybe if Magnus is home, they can talk.
He comes in silently, in case Greg's asleep, and he hears Magnus singing. To the baby, he guesses, and after a moment he can tell he's right; Magnus is singing to Greg in a low voice. He stands there listening for a moment, remembering, because that act of a mother singing to her child gives him a lot of feelings, and then he hears, I'm sorry I've not been around, little one. Mummy's just had so many things to think about this week. It's nothing to do with you, I promise.
Will's not sure what to make of that.
So he backs away and goes to sit in the front room so he doesn't wake Greg; it's time for his nap and he knows Magnus is putting him down for it.
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"You're home early. I wasn't expecting you until somewhat later."
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"Lucky you, an afternoon off?"
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"I wanted to talk to you about something but I'm not entirely certain where to start."
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Helen took in a deep breath and let it out slowly, trying to find the words she wanted to use. "Our paths divert so greatly. We go through terrible things and instead of getting closer, I pushed you away. I locked you out and you ended up with someone else."
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"I was hoping you'd never see those," he says.
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"You've seen them already," she said, trying to stay cool. She imagined some of her hurt leaked through but she had gotten very good at checking her emotions over the last century.
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Helen wasn't entirely sure that was fair, considering she'd been keeping the reels to herself for the better part of this week and had apparently, back home, kept a whole 113 years to herself but it didn't really seem in the spirit of marriage and communication that Will wouldn't tell her something so important as this.
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Strangely, this disturbed her more than the fact she was fictional. That seemed logical enough, considering the number of people she'd met on the island who were fictional in her world that she would be fictional in some of theirs.
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"Contrary to popular belief, I don't actually remember everything I've said and done over the last century or so and had you asked me about it or had we even talked about your schooling, there's a chance it might have come up. As it was, it did not, and that's hardly...what do you expect me to do? Give you a full account of every second I've been alive? You'll be here a long time, Will."
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It happened...oh bloody hell. It had taken her a moment to realize it but it appeared that Gregory had been conceived right around the time Will must have known about the reels.
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"Too bad John's not still here. You two could have a grand time talking about keeping things from me so that I can achieve your standard of happiness."
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Besides. She had some semblance of control if she waited him out and so wait she did, albeit not terribly patiently or gracefully.
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"Will?"
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"I don't want to stay outdoors with Gregory asleep inside but whenever you're ready to come in, I'm happy to continue this discussion."
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"I'm hurt you didn't trust me. I just watched...apparently John wanted to use a time machine to go back to before we took the blood so that we'd be together and I wouldn't leave him. He wanted to erase everything - the Sanctuary, Ashley, you...I'm reeling from that still."
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Helen sighed and worried her lower lip a bit with her teeth. "He said that he did this out of love. That he would change my life, your life, Ashley's...he would ruin everything so he could have me in his bed again. I wasn't pleased."
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"I suppose...I am not terribly fond of the woman I've become on those reels."
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Helen didn't want to believe that her happiness on the island, that her marriage to Will and her son were the result of some carefully-applied neurochemicals. And yet...
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It still bothered her, not knowing the truth, but she guessed she ought not dwell.
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"If he were here still, I'd be hard-pressed not to hit him."
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It all seemed patently ridiculous when spelled out like that and Helen wondered why, exactly, anyone would think she'd act that way.
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"I should go check on him. It's been a while."
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"I know that it was an accident but I'm grateful that it happened. I love him and you very much."
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Gregory was still quiet but had opened his eyes to look around a bit. Helen knew if she left him in the crib he would likely fall back asleep but she was torn between holding her son and letting him be for a little while.
"I think he'll go back to sleep if we leave him be but I sort of want to lay down with him myself. I haven't spent much time with him this week."
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